I've been avoiding writing in the blog - because I haven't got anything to write about... but then I realised that I need to capture that too, because my goal was to keep this journey real. I can't just write about my progress and not balance that with my struggles. I won't learn anything from this to help keep my weight off successfully in the future unless I talk about what challenges me.

I'm not sure what's going on with me. For years I have seemed to self-sabotage my progress as soon as I get positive feedback. For most people I think it would motivate them on, but for me I tend to retreat. Is it a self-esteem issue? I'm not sure.. Do I not really believe in myself, despite the progress I'm making, do I really expect to fail? I guess there are truths in each of those things.

I am so enjoying this body I'm in as I can feel the positive changes happening, I am SO grateful for the support I am receiving from people, the fact they have taken the time to say something positive, to encourage me, to share with me their knowledge, expertise and experience, yet my head is not in the right place this week.

I know what I need to do - I'm a logical person. I need to re-group, re-focus, concentrate on the positives. I know all these things yet there's a block - a resistance that I need to overcome. 

A friend posted this on Facebook tonight and I think it is exactly where I'm at:

So tomorrow's another day - I need to get back in the game.. I can do tis, but I need to believe I can do this!

K